Mother's day!

 MOM & DAD showed up! I know it was Gram's doing. Even if she is staying at L's at the moment. I mean, how long was this going to go on? (sigh) I love her, but all her Grandmothering can make me crazy. I want my Jake, who is still, you know, getting through this ordeal of leaving his job and finding a new job...and getting out of his apartment, which feels like an eternity! I'm not liking it. Not one little bit!

Anyway, I was surprised to see Mom & Dad. I mean, deep down, I kept thinking once I left, they would fall apart. Yeah, I know, I'm making it all about me. (sigh)

Dad's a high school choir teacher. And mom works in Special Ed. Damn, if they aren't the happiest people on earth!

Anyway, we went casual. Got deep dish pizza at a place L & Emmie suggested. Ended up at the mall and Mom and I got Crocs (so did Dad and Gram, too). Although son, like mother, they both love their Tommie Copper shoes best. 

OK, I'm not gonna lie, I loved seeing my parents. It was a long time coming, and I'm glad Gram got them to come up because she knew I was going nowhere. 

I feel I'm on pause about this with Jake. I mean, I go to work, do my best, come home, and wait for us to do FaceTime. I know I shouldn't be like this. I should just be calm. But deep inside, I'm not, I'm waiting for something to go wrong. Like he won't move here.

Oh, how I hate my anxieties. And I would probably be in an ocean of woes and wine if Gram wasn't here. I want to be strong. I don't want to need him, but I just want to see this through. I want us to be happy.

But like Gram has told me so many times in the past. I'm the most impatient person. Then again, I get it from her.

-Macy

Oh, that granddaughter

I just don't know what to do with that girl. I thought her experience with that boyfriend out in Denver had changed her. Evidently not. 

Is she in a rut? Doesn't she understand the freedom she has being out on her own?

None of us likes change, but I'm worried she might never enjoy life on her own. Supposedly, her library coworker is like a brother to her. But I highly doubt that. She's just telling me a story. I can sense it, you know.

Maybe he can keep her grounded. She has no sense of direction. This I know. She got lost once while coming home from middle school. (sigh) She kept going around and around the school block. Made her mother a nervous wreck. So it was me who had to take care of it.

Don't know if she just takes after her mother, perhaps. I love her with all my heart. After all, she's my closest grandchild. The rest live on the East or the West Coast. I never got to know them, quite like I did Macy.

Macy, Macy, Macy..what are we going to do with you?

Gram Jeanette

A little thing called love

 Just what Macy needed, her grandmother showing up Easter weekend. Of course, lately she was either on the phone with Jake or texting him. They both seemed to be in limbo, but her grandmother was here to straighten her out.

"I can't believe you're here," Macy did her best to be enthusiastic. 

"Well, why haven't you come home?" She snapped.

Macy felt shattered, wishing she could just lie on the couch and fall into a deep sleep, but that didn't happen.

"I've..I've been busy." Macy looked at her blankly.

"So busy, you couldn't even call me," Her grandmother put her hands on her hips and looked at the mess Macy hadn't even attempted, like dirty dishes and laundry.

"I'm sorry." Macy sighed. She knew that using the excuse of being overwhelmed wouldn't mean a thing to Gram, who was old-school. Being busy was therapeutic to her. Still, Macy felt a little shaky. Maybe she'd drunk too much coffee. Maybe she'd forgotten to eat.

"Well, I'm making banana bread," her Gram said, inspecting a blackened banana on the counter. In fact, she found a whole bunch of bananas. She made the batter from scratch.  Honestly, Macy didn't even know she had all the ingredients for bread. Thankfully, Jake had helped her fill her small pantry with the basics.

Maybe Gram would get along with Jake after all.

"Is there anything you want to tell me?" Gram asked after she got the muffin tin in the oven.

"Oh, well.." Macy felt certain she'd let Gram down, somehow. "I'm..I'm getting a roommate." She nodded.

"A roommate?" Gram winced with her hands on her hips.

Macy nodded, uncertain she dared to tell her who.