it's the little things

 

I'm so happy my brother is back. I didn't know how much I would miss him. He's my lifeline, you know. Yeah, I hate to say it, but it's true. I feel awful without him. 

I don't want him to go back to Chicago, but I can't seem to keep him here, so I've been helping him as much as I can.

And to think, we were doing well to see each other like once a week for Sunday dinner with the parents. Now I just want him to know he's been the best brother I ever had.

It makes me sad, but I'm trying to keep going. Be happy for him. I mean, I know I'm not one to even think about a soul mate, but evidently, Macy is his and so...

God, it's making me so sick. Like this huge lump of sadness in my throat. I just gotta find a way for us to be together. Cause I know he needs a brother around, and I'm that someone.

Jonas