Mother's day!

 MOM & DAD showed up! I know it was Gram's doing. Even if she is staying at L's at the moment. I mean, how long was this going to go on? (sigh) I love her, but all her Grandmothering can make me crazy. I want my Jake, who is still, you know, getting through this ordeal of leaving his job and finding a new job...and getting out of his apartment, which feels like an eternity! I'm not liking it. Not one little bit!

Anyway, I was surprised to see Mom & Dad. I mean, deep down, I kept thinking once I left, they would fall apart. Yeah, I know, I'm making it all about me. (sigh)

Dad's a high school choir teacher. And mom works in Special Ed. Damn, if they aren't the happiest people on earth!

Anyway, we went casual. Got deep dish pizza at a place L & Emmie suggested. Ended up at the mall and Mom and I got Crocs (so did Dad and Gram, too). Although son, like mother, they both love their Tommie Copper shoes best. 

OK, I'm not gonna lie, I loved seeing my parents. It was a long time coming, and I'm glad Gram got them to come up because she knew I was going nowhere. 

I feel I'm on pause about this with Jake. I mean, I go to work, do my best, come home, and wait for us to do FaceTime. I know I shouldn't be like this. I should just be calm. But deep inside, I'm not, I'm waiting for something to go wrong. Like he won't move here.

Oh, how I hate my anxieties. And I would probably be in an ocean of woes and wine if Gram wasn't here. I want to be strong. I don't want to need him, but I just want to see this through. I want us to be happy.

But like Gram has told me so many times in the past. I'm the most impatient person. Then again, I get it from her.

-Macy